Twilight: Allow me to fill you in about what happened between us when I was gone... we dated for about 6 months (her third longest lasting relationship, however, only half of her longest), and the first three months didn't have very many bumps. Of course, almost nothing happened in those three months as well. I decided to join our school musical, due to a shortage of guys, but also to show her that I could be fun and creative (given her nickname for me-which still persists, is buzzkiller due to my overtechnicality). During this time, we really fell off. I think it was more of her father leaving for Egypt in the army, and her mom being dysfunctional and me being helpless in the situation more than anything, but our relationship took one blow after another. Our first fight occured when I got tired of her constant complaining to me and asked "Don't you have anything positive to say". Things worsened over time, especially when she started forgetting anniversary dates, blowing off the poems I wrote her, and talking to me less. The final signal, for me, that she wasn't interested was actually during the musical. I had gotten superbly sick prior to the musical weekend (losing over 7 lbs to a week long puking fest, during which I could miss no school or else be banned from musical itself), but stayed the course, hoping her seeing me perform would boost our relationship back up. However... I learn later that she left before I got on state, complaining that "her little brothers had a cold, and she had a bad cough"... two months later, she leaves me on the grounds of "We never talk, we always fight and we never see eachother".
I already told her I still had feelings for her....at our first prom, ironically enough. She went alone (for the first time to a school dance ever, I noted), but danced with friends. So for the first...eh...3/4 of prom I skulked around, talking to friends and making excuses for why I wasn't dancing until one of my black friends (a girl, who came with her drunk boyfriend), told me I had to dance. I told her I only wanted to dance with one girl, whom she accurately guesses, then has her drunk boyfriend force me to the dance floor to dance with her. So I do. When one of the slow songs (finally) came on, I told her that I missed her, to which she responded "I... I don't know what to say to that" about four songs later, Prom ended, and I was confronted by my black friend and her friends, them asking me what I saw in her, telling me she was a bitch, further telling me she was complaining about dancing with me inaudibly, etc. So yeah, the whole heart-to-heart thing? Tried and failed. ($200 gone, never attending a school dance again)
So, I've decided to vent my feelings by finding her the guy/girl who's her perfect partner, and as for me...I'll just fool around with as many girls as possible until I'm sick of them. Hell, in the past week, I've sexted three seperate girls. Already getting tired of that...