I have less then two days to go. Worried alot can feel my body make sudden shifts and then I get to the point that I am so scared I want to call and postpone this treatment asking them if there is anything else they can do other then this. I am trembling scared. Not sure what to do. Just want to lay in bed and think what should I do. But then my head comes back to rea
Some where Deep inside Some where deep inside this heart of mine Its soft and cool. Precious exhilarated rose divine, Some where deep inside is a soothing river, Of dreams near the clear blue ocean, And divine of silver. Some where deep inside is a place, A place of many splender things, Where all my love is k
I daydream alot hoping that some of these do come true. But many I wish not... I believe these are our comfort zones coming out. I have learned alot and Believe that comfort zones are good as long as you are not creating personalities to go with them... Unlike In my case. Its hard for people to understand that my fellow personalities have a system that suprises not ju
When I was 15 and 16 I became very suicidal due to home issues as well as I figured if God wasnt going to come get me I would go to him. Life didnt seem worth living when I would go to school and the first think I did was go straight to the nurses office to be checked and photographed due to the abuse suffered at home by my brother. One Day I went to school with a fra
My thoughts when I was growing up cause I always thought that I must have done something bad to deserve what I was going through. Poetry was my way of getting my feelings accross. A Paper of Feelings This Poem may seem like nothing to you, But to me is a piece of scripture paper. To write what I think, that I can't tell with words
when I was 16 I wrote this for my next door neighbor because her family was full blooded Irish. The Little Irish Little Irish people living in the middle of the little town of little. In fields of green clovers where leprechauns play, People singing and dancing on Saint Patty's Day. "My Wild Irish Rose" the leprechauns sing.
In A World All Its Own Everyone is special in there own way, Each child is like a snow flake, Unique and beautiful. Everyone has a dream, God put us on this earth for a reason, So, that means as well as a place, We have a dream, too! © 2003 Crystal Wyatt To have a friendship all its own, Is
Music Music can be anything, To a tune or song. To a poem or a story, Music is in you and me. It is not bad and it is not good, It is both. Music is funny or it is emotional, It is load or is it soft. Music is slow or is it fast, It is deep and it is upon you, It is in your memory, Or is it
As I meditate, I think of everyone. As I sleep in awakeness, I see know past nor future. As I dream in this state, I fear only fear itself. And not waking up knowing myself. As I think of other Galaxies, I wonder about love, And seeking my own personal life. But as I awake I fi
GBS and what does this mean? what is Gbs or Group b strep it is an organism that lives on another without harming it. What can this do to you? Well nothing to the host but if you are a woman who is pregnant this can mean a lot to you. GBS can do a lot to a newborn baby if you have this. First,there are two types of GBS and they are Early Onset
I am writing this to allow people to know more about diseases and syndromes that children can get at birth. One of my friends gave me this idea when her son ended up having PVL, which is the short name for PeriVentricular Leukomalacia the Definition, is damage and softening of the white matter, the inner part of the brain that transmits information between the nerve
Due to my own learning disabilities I encouraged my self to find out more about what LD is and how can I understand it and help my own family out. About Learning Disabilities Learning Disabilities What is a Learning Disability?, A lot of parents ask teachers and other authoritarians who know and have been taught how to deal with
After the police talked to me and the doctors tested me for things then my mom was contacted and my brothers had to be talked to by the police but because of my mom's heavy influence and I believe she slept with the cops to get what she wanted. They told me I had a great imagination. And it started up worse then it had ever been. Keegan would beat me before he started
IN THE BEGINNING Raped Victims I think anyone who has ever been raped its hard for. But I think its even harder for a person who has been victimized by another person and there parents or family don't believe them. That is when it ripes the person up inside. This is a natural feeling for me. I have been raped and beaten since I was like six
BEING AN AMERICAN! Being an american you are suppose to feel proud but to me because of what Bush is doing I feel as through the terrorist because that is what Bush is doing. He is stooping as low as the rest of the terrorists. And that is wrong. Like I have said many times. If we had a democratic person who decided to do this they would be impeached but beca
I keep on thinking to myself about growing up. I use to think it was me that was in the wrong but after last night. I dont believe that anymore. I think when one goes to counseling while the other family members sit on there asses and keep abusing things or people are the ones that should be in here. I think its our home lives when we are a child that makes
Well, Once again a movie has made me think. I just got done watching the Divine Secrets of the YaYa club. I figured out my problem, I try to focus on the good things instead of the bad things to put things instead of the bad things to put things out of my mind. And I keep thinking things are going to be okay but its not. Cause I think about it daily. I thin
Another day has gone and once again I have checked my daily news to find that President George Bush Jnr's Twin Girls are back in the paper. But I see that its for a much better reason then they are normally in. The article I found talks about them turning 21. Usually, you can see his girls in the paper because of there alchol problem. I don't understand why
I guess, I am unsure where to start. Living a hectic life seems to get at me alot. Especially when i see people who have gone through less pain and less suffering. Probably even lied there way through things or evn bought there way through difficult tasks. The reason for this is cause they probably didnt want to go through then pain of trying. I look at peopl
This last wednesday I found out that a friend of mine, his dad passed away. He was in a motorcycle accident and died of his injuries within a few days of the accident. The man I will call Terry was 52 years old. As I sit here with his picture and Obit infront of me just makes me want not to believe he is actually gone. He was a man who inspired me growing up to r
This is mainly Dedicated to my children and my grandmother Darlene, Grandma Ruthie, Grandpa and Grandma Borgan The people that mostly influenced my life and has made me who I am.. who I believed either they lived a great life or that there life was cut short and now they live with in me. My Angels In Heaven A soul from earth, Tha
Every year especially in North Dakota we wish and pray for the snow to go away and the cold to leave us once again. Here we do have all for seasons and they are all dramatic as ever. But there are surely signs that we look for that indicates to us that summer is on its way and spring is definately here. Here is a poem that I wrote just this year about spring
In 1996, I was given the pleasure of meeting this elderly man who had been wheel chair bound for most of his life due to polio at a childhood age. Was a judge as a young man in his 30's and 40's. I use to volunteer at a nursing home and there I was his friend. I would go up to see him every weekend and sometimes even during the evenings. This sometimes was my only way
In the last year I have diagnosed with DID Desociable Identity Disorder or multi personality Disorder. Do to the fact of my childhood. This is how I explain what happens when we create a personality that keeps us from feeling the pain or dealing with the pain at that very moment in life. In my case Creating Came natural to me due to the fact of what happen when I was
Typing Under Wifes Name Here. The best way to work for me as i stated in my blog was to expand and contract more or less a safety method if ya think about it
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